This past saturday I heard a guest speaker at church that moved my heart and actually helped me understand something that I have struggled with for a long time: The actual thought of ME being a worthy daughter of God.
I have always felt condemned and guilty that I could never be the better person that Jesus wants me to be. I always felt that because of all that I had done, or said or thought; God would be mad at me. I mostly felt guilty that I could never be the best I could be, not perfect, not the happiest and more positive person, not the most patient or the most eloquent… guilty for being upset with my daughters for not listening to me, for being stressed because I could barely have time to clean, cook, do homework, clean our home, take care of my shop (design new cards, take pictures, list more products, promote them online, process orders, etc)… At the end of each day I love my bed!
While everything that surround us may stress, upset and get us tired, God understands every single part of us and our imperfect nature and knows that even if we -with every good will in our being- try to be perfect for God; He knows that is impossible.
But you, Lord, are a compassionate and gracious God,
slow to anger, abounding in love and faithfulness.
Nothing that we do or say will get us close to God's perfection. But getting close to God regardless of our condition, our own thoughts about ourselves, or the thoughts about us from others is what really matters to God: That we get close to him. He wants to talk to us, to listen even if we are tired and feel ashamed, guilty or condemned.
God never will condemn us. God will never come after us because we didn't pray long enough, or we didn't fast long enough, or we didn't sang loud enough, etc.
God is after our heart, but we don't understand this. We are thinking with our brain, telling us that we need to DO SOMETHING to please God.
And that's where we are wrong. And that's where God shows his infinite, never ending, everlasting and faithful love: He wants us to turn to him regardless of what we think about ourselves and give him the time to cultivate this relationship and the knowledge of his true nature: God's eternal love and joy and real truthful happiness.
God is our Father and Counselor, full of love and ready to give it to us anytime we look for him. Don't let your thoughts move you away from his love.
“Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moths and vermin destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moths and vermin do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.
Matthew 6: 19-21
This verse is key to being close to God and wanting the things that God wants for us.
As humanity, the world tells us to accumulate certain amounts of "things" that makes us worthy to the world's eyes. Money, social rank, accomplishments, houses, cars, expensive clothing, etc. All material things that only cover us superficially. As the verse says everything that the world demands you to have to be found worthy are things that can be taken away, broken, destroyed and lost.
If on the other hand we listen to God's voice and his definition of us, we will find ourselves liberated form all this wordly oppression. No masks to put on, no lies to tell, no pretensions…
When we look up to God's definition of us, all these things are meaningless, worthless, not ever found important in our lives; when we hear what God wants for us and what he thinks of us, then everything changes. We change because we begin to understand God. We being to comprehend what God loves, what God disapproves and we begin to have a new set of values and goals. No longer are the material things important but the things that fill our Spirit and give us hope, joy, rest and love. Eternal love.
Why do you think God sent his only son -Jesus- to live among us like us, flesh and bones, and then be tortured, crucified and then resurrected to go back to his rightful place next to him in Heaven?
It is because of his great love for us, to give us an opportunity to turn ourselves to him, willingly and not by force, to shower us with his love and grace, so that we may worship and love him eternally.
As I started this post: IT DOESN'T MATTER what you think about you. God loves you and wants all of you loving all about him all the time.
Sending you love,
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